Marmota monax.
Land-beaver, woodchuck, whistle-pig
Seeks the glowing embrace of Spring.
Doesn’t smoke, doesn’t drink, only
uses recreational drugs as prescribed

Must be willing to relocate,
like feeling your claws
in the sweet soil,
have good posture,
be able to carry a tune.

Will rise from his sepulcher,
every day,
damp and cold,
only to greet you,
to welcome you home
to the alfalfa fields
you know you want.

Come bring the thaw.
Winter has left the burrow
big enough for two
Mighty incisors will
make you bark and squeal,
whistle and grind,
into Summer.

Summers were spent at The Ranch, where we’d wake and run as fast as we could to the main house where my Grandmother and her sisters would have made huge platters of sausages, eggs, bacon, fresh-made cinnamon buns, and huge red plastic glasses overfilled with orange juice. They would feed us until we felt like we would burst, and then they’d stuff us again at lunch with thick cut salami on crusty sourdough bread so rough it cut the roof of your mouth. Dinner was huge family style meals with homemade ravioli.

The night I found my mother lying on the living room floor, eyes rolled into the back of her head, I took a sip of her white wine, bitter, dry, and sweet, thinking it may have made her sick. I was 10 and the seizure was caused by an orange-sized tumor on her brain. When Scott was done with his chemotherapy, believing his apricot-sized tumor having been removed from his shin was gone for good, my uncle bought him unlimited video rentals at the local video store, and we would rent movies and order bacon cheeseburgers as big as your head from Chick – N – Que.

By 16 I found weed, tangy bean dip, and tortilla chips, which when applied together made for a great after school snack. I would come home and sit with Mom in her bed and feed her Hershey’s bars (with almonds), tell her about my day, and watch her stare blankly at the TV. In boot camp I cried myself to sleep many nights, wishing for breakfasts at The Ranch, forgetting about them by morning.

The day Scott died, Toph and I sat on the roof of my parent’s house and ate chunks of stale sourdough bread and drank red wine from a jug. When I first met Chandra she made a delicious baked ziti, heavy with sauce and layered with thick slices of mozzarella. We spent our honeymoon in New Orleans, where I had everything fried and found out that French Doughnuts were actually beignets. The night before I left her, we ate a salad with sliced Roma tomatoes, baked tofu, and bell peppers. The last time I got drunk it was during Thanksgiving at The Ranch, and I can’t remember what I ate, but I drank several bottles of red wine and some vanilla cognac.

Tonight I watched cartoons and ate leftover samosas from a funeral for a man I didn’t know.

This was a pretty complex project, although I had managed Litquake’s previous site built in WordPress as well by Likoma.  They have since redesigned the site with another developer, but are still using WordPress.